free falling

with no one else in the sky you flew
the biggest anyone i ever knew
your heart engorged and your mind engaged
a single scrawl on a pale blue page
always looking around and around
blind to your height looking down down down
while in the unknown belows the people blind
danced their dance and bided time
you were safe in the sky but impatient to know
how it might be to be more than alone
though you'd known only you something hurt in your mind
crying out for a friend thought too tiny to find
for a view from above made you think some new thunks
that to be more than alone you would have to be shrunk
small and then smaller to fit in down there
from so high they seemed small.
in another somewhere.
so you cut out a piece of your heart and your soul
you shaved back your skin and squashed into their mould
fresh tiny people saw you break through their fog
and you being different were proclaimed their new god
and what did you think? did you like being god?
did you forget you had shrunk? were you blinded by fog?
you were only fresh meat. their gods come on strong
they're adored and embraced but they never last long
i don't think you knew. those people were small.
they made you forget you had known things at all
gods always feel rare and of a whole the chief part
no matter how small they may be in their secretest hearts
you didn't want to be wrong. you were wrong just the same.
i saw you implored you but their dance overcame
in a chemical fog there is no need to breathe
when you don't breathe you can't feel and there's nothing to see
the world goes on swirling no matter what you give up
the people keep dancing under gods of the sun
then gods choke, they gasp fast, their eyes start to run
but the people keep dancing cos new gods will come
i just wish you'd known you can't breathe in that fog
you think that you can, but it's not breath, it's not
it feels good to stand proud, at last a known god
but you're breathing and breathing their terrible fog
i know that it's true. i know from feelings in me
and so i guess that it is, that it's all outta reach